Ohmy goodness! I forgot to check in on week four (my 2nd week) of the plan! My son’s friend was killed in a car accident and his memorial service was on Tuesday. Now there is something that takes your breath away. Life can change in an instant. Friends since kindergarden, the boys graduated high school in June of 2006…. young men, 20 year olds, not really boys… but when you think about the shortness of his life… he was a boy.
Earlier this week my 22 year old (boy with the broken heart), announced he’s moving out to the midwest. Ohmy goodness… I have mixed emotions here. First of all, he took a break from college. I want him to complete his degree before he completely leaves the nest, but I can see that isn’t happening this next year. He’s leaving a very good job… I know he can go out there and find something in his field, so that doesn’t concern me as much as it seems. I don’t want to be an over bearing mom, I’ve let my children do what they think they need to do. So I’m not saying much to him about this. I expressed my opinion to him, and I think that’s the best I can do right now. It didn’t change his mind. He’s packing up his belongings and heading east in a few short weeks.
I’m not anywhere near meeting my challenges this week. I could easily blame it on stress. But the plain truth is, I simply didn’t try to stay with the program. I wonder why I have this mentality… when I go off plan with one food item, all of a sudden I think, well I blew it today, so I can have whatever I want to eat the rest of the day. I know it’s something I need to work on. I haven’t figured out a sollution for the problem.
I have been getting in more exercise, but 30 minutes straight hasn’t worked out very well this week. Partially because I think I’m somewhat depressed. I’d rather stay in bed… curled up with my fluffy comforters and a good book or watching television. I have a real ‘take me away from it all’ mentality this week. However, I make myself get up, shower, and get ready for my day as if I’m heading out the door to go to something important. Right now, I wish I wasn’t a stay at home mom… I wish I had something I had to go do every single day. Sitting home alone sure isn’t working out for me right now.
Okay, enough of the pity party. I’m going to take my fat butt out of this chair and go work off some of this stress…
Oh and while I think about it, Join with thousands of women, companies and organizations and cities across America on National Wear Red Day, Friday, February 1, 2008… tomorrow! Ha… maybe I’ll put on my red dress and hit the mall tomorrow. That sounds like a plan to me!